Tag: mental illness

Tell me about the rabbits

kldistaffen February 23, 2019 0 Comments
a letter to my mental health Photo by Jackson Jorvan from Pexels I don't really spiral as much as I go down a rabbit hole and can't find my way back, I explained to the psychiatrist who saw me the morning after I went to the ER. I go down a rabbit hole, and I can't find my way back, and lately, there's too many rabbits and too many holes for me to even sleep soundly at night, and they're long...

The girl in the brown pajamas

kldistaffen February 7, 2019 2 Comments
They take your phone away, lock it up with the rest of your belongings. You can't have them in the Psych ward. But they do have ginger ale and water; graham crackers and ice cream; visiting hours and showers. They also have a tv. But there's only so many times you can watch Chopped before you go crazy. The boredom is enough to make anybody go crazy. "...suicidal" it read on my admission form,...

Maybe home is more than just a place

kldistaffen January 29, 2019 0 Comments
Six months ago, I never thought I'd find myself here--in a room with white colored walls and a stippled ceiling, a place to call my own. "There's no place like home." Dorothy once said, as she tapped her ruby slippers Together one by one. "Home is where the heart is," They all say as if a heart can fill a place, take up Residence in a building full of feelings. Maybe home is more than just a...

This is what healing looks like

kldistaffen January 24, 2019 0 Comments
“But in the end, one needs more courage to live than to kill himself.” ― Albert Camus I always thought I'd end up killing myself one day; that's the way I'd go out--swallowing a bottle of pills, driving into a tree, or jumping out a window. So many ways to die; not enough time to execute them all. (See what I did there?) But then healing has this way of sneaking up on you, of...

What Borderline Personality Disorder taught me about myself

kldistaffen January 21, 2019 0 Comments
Borderline- Noun; a personality disorder (mood disorder) characterized by unstable moods, behavior, and relationships.I have to talk to you, I texted him at 8:00 one night, it's important. I sabotage relationships because I don't feel like I deserve any thing good in my life. I don't feel worth it. He simply replied, I know. But you are. It's hard existing in a world where you constantly feel...