Category: borderline personality

Tell me about the rabbits

kldistaffen February 23, 2019 0 Comments
a letter to my mental health Photo by Jackson Jorvan from Pexels I don't really spiral as much as I go down a rabbit hole and can't find my way back, I explained to the psychiatrist who saw me the morning after I went to the ER. I go down a rabbit hole, and I can't find my way back, and lately, there's too many rabbits and too many holes for me to even sleep soundly at night, and they're long...

The girl in the brown pajamas

kldistaffen February 7, 2019 2 Comments
They take your phone away, lock it up with the rest of your belongings. You can't have them in the Psych ward. But they do have ginger ale and water; graham crackers and ice cream; visiting hours and showers. They also have a tv. But there's only so many times you can watch Chopped before you go crazy. The boredom is enough to make anybody go crazy. "...suicidal" it read on my admission form,...

living life palms up

kldistaffen February 1, 2019 0 Comments
finding the will to live amidst the trauma Photo by Victor Freitas from Pexels The first thing I learned in therapy was to validate myself--validate the past versions of me that were hurt, validate the parts of myself that are hurting now; another thing I learned while completing the 'Emotional Regulation' section of DBT theory, designed to help manage the effects of Borderline...

What Borderline Personality Disorder taught me about myself

kldistaffen January 21, 2019 0 Comments
Borderline- Noun; a personality disorder (mood disorder) characterized by unstable moods, behavior, and relationships.I have to talk to you, I texted him at 8:00 one night, it's important. I sabotage relationships because I don't feel like I deserve any thing good in my life. I don't feel worth it. He simply replied, I know. But you are. It's hard existing in a world where you constantly feel...